had this ill ass dream, fucking a lucid dream i think its called, aight so im sitting in my dads car listening to some music just chilling and he comes out in his underwear like flipping on me, and my room is all fucked up, when i come inside, then i punch a whole in my wall and just go on the computer, then worrying about fucking up the wall in my room, then i realized the whole setup of my room was fucked up, it wasn't my actual room so i punch another whole in my wall to see if it hurt my hand. nothing at all. So then i start thinking "oh shit" i'm going to have fun. i jump out of my computer room window and just start soaring around my back yard/neighborhood. and i go to the 7-11 to just see if it was the same area but it was only woods past my road so i just go back and specifically remember seeing danielle and jackie driving i tried saying hi, but they didn't see me. so i just stay flying in my backyard agian and there is this like vampire zombie guy trying to hurt my sister, and i just like really calmly told them all "look this is a dream, its not real don't worry about it" and after some convincing they obliged and we made a fire and i hit up a girl who I'm not going to name out of respect, and i dont want to look like a creep, you know i don't even think i had her number in real life (facebook friends maybe?) she went to high school with us, and told her there was a party, and we just fucked while floating in the sky for the rest of the dream.

you know it kind of annoys me how rappers who have never been actors in their life turn to acting for whatever reason, i know the reasoning is just to get a wider fanbase and get your face seen by more people, and ludacris has done a great job doing this, but some people just get greedy with it. I for one love seeing the Rza acting more than him actually rapping (he's the master producer for wu-tang) but people like Common, 50 cent, and Will I am fuck off. I was thinking about this because last night we were talking about samuel Jackson being in all these movies. and I just feel bad for all young black actors, after morgan freeman and james earl jones die theres not much top notch respectable ones left after Billy Dee Williams, but i can't think of anything he's done besides a cameo on scrubs after....Under Cover Brother? Which was a classic giving eddie griffin a pass on crashing that car Alvee. But back to what i was saying, after these guys get too old to be making real movies, fucking whose going to be playing respectable roles, fucking DMX.


P.S. DMX would actually be good for a member of shield
P.S.S. updated top ten list comign shortly

but i heard about these pictures, fucking these Rihanna pictures,
Don't know if it is actually her, but got danm got danm here you all go

http://egotastic.com/entertainment/celebrities/rihanna/rihanna-nude-004623

Also in other news a nail went through my foot and i am out of commission for a minute.

But still Naked rihanna pictures!!!!!!!The story supposedly is that they were realeased about a day ago, and Def Jam has been vigorusly been trying to take them off the internet, there is also a video being shopped around, even if it aint her, everyone ladies included shoud check the pictures to appreciate beauty

there are sources on wikipedia, but my internet is pissing me off so im off to bed

ahhh well just so everyone knows, my car is going to cost nearly 1,000 not bad considering i thought i'd need a whole new transmission. The cop Shop event calmed me like nothing else really could, like just going there is the best thing in the world for me, i met up with madd people so don't be surprised if at my next party there are a lot of weird rappers. But i am probably going to stop coming to this site for a minute, I'm wasting a lot of time just coming on here and reading shit, i can't imagine how much time is completely wasted posting some of the bull shit yall post. But chris imma call you out n here because i cant call you right now, but if you are seriously interested in doing some things with your beats get in touch this weekend, leave a voicemail too.

i had the best day yesterday, fucking i met DMC, from erun dmc, got a picture too, and eddie from the cop shop gave me 5 cd's for nearly nothing, then around 11, i go to drive home from the studio, and fucking doesn't move, my fuckign tranny is fuckinng shot just sitting in joshy's driveway. now i go to fuckign turn on the fuckign television the fuckign blue screen is back on danm near every fuckign channel, this is some real fuckign bullshit, they took away x files from me, now i lost I love money, history channel, and fuckign no more fucking Good times, I'm going to be pissed if i have to invest in Netflix, fuck did they take away the mets too? Nah they left me the mets, so when i want to watch them lose i can do that every night at least. I don't know im pretty pissed to say the least, to pay for the tranny anyone know where i can get a job?
if anyone wants to go to the last cop shop concert tonight hit me up

you won thsi round, but imma get you back....
fuckign someone reported me and my facebook account is deleted. you son of a bitch.
you are lucky i like you because thats dirty man. you knew i was goign to beat you

yo know i thought facebook was so gay and if not for this one certian thing i'd have delted it, but i've spent an increbile amount of tiem into this one thing, and im proud of it truely proud of it.

Be aware of the fact that when you tell a girl something in earnest you are actually telling her entire inner circle of friends.

I copied that from james page, it was too long ago for me to leave a comment, i just want to call bullshit on this. Yeah everyone reading this is b far much worse of a gossip than any girl i've met for the most part, not saying im a fucking pimp, but you know for a fact once i tell one kid one thing, everyone that was at your house for your party is going to know within the next few months. so unless you are calling yourself and your friends girls what you said has no real truth.


Also I lied about the cop shop, he isn't going out of business anymore, hes hooking up with another store, a specialty sneaker store to be exact, hes going to have aa smaller section, ans they will keep up the in-store signings. The open mics are going to be moved to some bar, not known exactly yet, but ill tell all yall to come watch me rock the shit. he's bringing them back in june. not that anyone gives a shit, because yall can't respect something real like that but i just thought i should say it
also DMC from run DMC is going to be at suffolk on april 29th, i say definately check that out or at least try to.

Alright now here comes the stories that really made any of my live journal posts worth reading in my opinion. In one night i got banned from really two of the most ironic places considering it is myself Buffalo Wild wings and 7-11. yeah not all 7-11's but my 7-11. but first ill get into buffalo wild wings. it was thrusday, and you know im madd cheap, I come in with my soda from home, i don't have any money to buy anything, i just wanted to hang out with my friends, and i walk in , its fucking madd packed and there is this bald kind-of-fat pussy with a BWW polo, so because his shirt is a different color this bitch ass is thinking hes got authority. He looks at me, and before anything hes saying no outside drinks in here. I try to explain myself saying, "look honestly first off where am i going to put it, second off, if you really make me leave, how much sense does it make to lose 50-$100, because your kicking me out for bringing in a drink from home, not to mention i've brought it in here before" Then hes saying "its policy, and if everyone brought drinks from home we'd lose money" then i said thats complete bullshit, then he said, if i didn't throw the cup out, he was goign to get people to kick me out, so i said "nah heres a real reason to kick me out" as i poured the cup of soda over his chest. I was ready to knock this pussy out, but i just walked out. i was never told i was banned from bww, but im probably not welcome there so thats why i said that.
now for 7-11, the kid who has worked the night shift for the past year and a half, consistantly busts my balls, you know i've been going there since i was fucking 7, now I've spent 1,000's of dollars on slurpees alone, and i know the people that work there on a name basis. but this night shift kid, who i usually only see, because i go there at like midnight and after, so sometimes i'll catch the mourning guy, but let me getback, so fucking i want to go to the bathroom on my walk to the bank, to deposit my bullshit ass check. So im already pissed about the bww and my bullshit ass check, and how i can't even spend enough money to get a clear slurpee cup, right, its enough to get anyone pissed, then this bitch tells me i can't use the bathroom anymore, his manager says no one but employees can use it. I've been using this bathroom before this pussy has been in America. thats real fuckin talk, so i tell him its cool, "it's me" one of those, and he tells me "who the hell are you" and im like shocked, just like what the fuck is god testing me, i kind of laughed and just started walking to the bathroom anyway, and he gets in front of me and tells me i can't take another step, and i take another step, and e pushed me.... "what the fuck, you want me to piss on the floor dude? haha you'll be cleaning it up" and he gets really angry, and says "if i take another step he's calling the police, and im still laughing, but i am starting to get angry too, so i kind of walk through him this next step, and he like tries throwing me, so now im pissed and tell him if i don't take a piss here, there going to be problems i fucking know where the dude lives at and imma fuck him up yada yada yada" and hes still standing his ground, so i toss him by the soda, and he tells me hes calling the police and everything was on camera, and i just left scared as shit, like i'm 19 i'm probably going to jail, but then nothing has happened and he did push me first so now, im kind of happy i completly bitched him out, but at the same time if i ever want a slurpee i have to go to mark tree, which the white guy working there is madd chill i must say.

Also another great story with me is the donanting platelets story, but it was too long ago for me to write up, ask me next time i see you if your interested, or ask andrews, danielle criag, or krystal i told them already, peace one love

wrote the last shit 12 hours ago and couldn't sleep just got back from class and making some chicken wings,

But in response to my last post here you go, aplhabetical falter at my favorite place in the world
R.I.P.

yo i only came on here to read the entry like wrote about love, i was told everything was funny such as the comments, and no offense mike but i heard your argument was highly flawed, but so was nearly every comment regarding the issue, now I'm not going to sit here and bullshit you all, I've never been in anything close to love, and am not a psychologist but AP psych and stony brook psych 111 has told me that the feelings of love stimulate different parts of the brain and have been shown to continue throughout life.  Remember in the movie 50 first dates the guy who forgets everything after looking away.  Well i remember from that class we watched a video with an actual guy with that problem and functioned perfectly and only remembered two things they pointed out, something about playing music and piano and his wife.  He could not remember anything such as how he met her, his children, or even where he fucking was living, but he remembered her and until his death he kept those feelings about this woman who he knew essentially nothing about, except that he loved her. Love isn't something we can sit here and type about I can't believe that it's something thats truely beyond us, and hopefully i'll be able to experiance in my lifetime.  As shown by my exapmle love doesn't have to have anything to do with fucking, obviously fucking/making love symbolizes it, and can cause the same brain functions to occur, but its two different things, thats how I feel if anyone would like to say anything else i'd like to hear it.  

Also Mike made a point calling James out for being homophobic, and thats something I have had on my mind lately, not james being homophobic but our entire society.  Partly because of me getting deeper into hip hop and whatnot, and in the world of hip hop if i were to say i had a gay friend, I'd be looked at as a homosexual myself.  I know people who was in the same room as Kevin patera, would just leave the house, because it makes them that uncomfortable.  Which you all know I have no problem with anyone for what they do or there beliefs/lifestyle, but I can't lie and say for myself, and say It wouldn't skeeve me out to see him on top of another naked man kissing him. I don't mean to sound ignorant, but thats the truth, and I mean I mean no intentional disrespect towards him, because honestly i enjoy his company he's one funny fucking kid.  lmfao i have a few funny stories involving that kid, you know I'd fuck somebody up for that kid, but still can't stop myself from getting nearly grossed out when eric stewart saying "my asshole is like my vagina".  Let me digress, not a disgusted feeling but just a strange feeling along the lines of the one I used to get when I was alone around a group of thug looking black people which is still racist, but nothing along the sides of wearing a mask calling Barack Obama A nigger.  I can't say I've never called some one out for doing something "gay" and I still do it occasionally, ignorant or not.  No lie if I see some one wearing tight pants and a scarf the first thing that'll come to my mind "that kids a fucking faggot".  It's something engrained in me that when I'm not thinking it'll come out, but when i turn my mind on i don't act polite and politically correct only to be politically correct in public, i believe it's natural to be yourself at any cost. You know Mike I don't mean to call you out, but you were pretty offended when that dumb fucking kid i forget his name, he was always real real shady around me, he lives around us, but you were fucking pissed when he said something about you beigng gay.  And its funny because thats just society beating out or brains, when we think i guess. let me get back to point.
You know I look at myself as pretty progressive, I've eaten with millionaire republicans in the Hamptons to fighting alongside fake bloods in queens (and when i say fake, I don't mean they wouldn't fuck us up) and I've hooked up with a higher vareity of race of girls than anyone reading this most likely (Alvee hook me up with a brown girl, I NEED it).  Not many people have had the experiances I've had to make the type of decisions I can make, and yet i still get this weird feeling thinking about a boy going down on another boy.  And what I'm trying to say with this is lets say I've lived a very sheltered uneducated life, I'd be very disrespectful towards many different people homosexuals included.  and knowing that, for homosexuals to come out, with the option to stay in the closet and no one looking at you funny, or treating you differently I have CRAZY respect for gay people for that.
 I don't know thats just something thats been on my mind for a bit and I haven't been able to really channel it anywhere without someone looking at me a little different.  I don't know though maybe things would be different if one of my closest friends was a homosexual instead of an aquantiance, just because I know I wouldn't stop being their friend for it, but until that happens i'll live like this i guess.
Also I don't mean to offend anyone, if what i said came off offensive i'll apologize its just something I do not understand too well.  I only wrote this to get other people's opinoins, and just check them out.  If anyone gay would like to comment I'd love and appreciate it, and for Mike and everyone that commented n his love shit I'd like to hear some more intelligent conversation 
and I have to keep the pattern going, with my last journal entries fuck you ya dumb pussies