allenmurphy

Wed, 26 Aug 2009 21:05:42 GMT

had this ill ass dream, fucking a lucid dream i think its called, aight so im sitting in my dads car listening to some music just chilling and he comes out in his underwear like flipping on me, and my room is all fucked up, when i come inside, then i punch a whole in my wall and just go on the computer, then worrying about fucking up the wall in my room, then i realized the whole setup of my room was fucked up, it wasn't my actual room so i punch another whole in my wall to see if it hurt my hand. nothing at all. So then i start thinking "oh shit" i'm going to have fun. i jump out of my computer room window and just start soaring around my back yard/neighborhood. and i go to the 7-11 to just see if it was the same area but it was only woods past my road so i just go back and specifically remember seeing danielle and jackie driving i tried saying hi, but they didn't see me. so i just stay flying in my backyard agian and there is this like vampire zombie guy trying to hurt my sister, and i just like really calmly told them all "look this is a dream, its not real don't worry about it" and after some convincing they obliged and we made a fire and i hit up a girl who I'm not going to name out of respect, and i dont want to look like a creep, you know i don't even think i had her number in real life (facebook friends maybe?) she went to high school with us, and told her there was a party, and we just fucked while floating in the sky for the rest of the dream.

Tue, 09 Jun 2009 06:16:35 GMT

you know it kind of annoys me how rappers who have never been actors in their life turn to acting for whatever reason, i know the reasoning is just to get a wider fanbase and get your face seen by more people, and ludacris has done a great job doing this, but some people just get greedy with it. I for one love seeing the Rza acting more than him actually rapping (he's the master producer for wu-tang) but people like Common, 50 cent, and Will I am fuck off. I was thinking about this because last night we were talking about samuel Jackson being in all these movies. and I just feel bad for all young black actors, after morgan freeman and james earl jones die theres not much top notch respectable ones left after Billy Dee Williams, but i can't think of anything he's done besides a cameo on scrubs after....Under Cover Brother? Which was a classic giving eddie griffin a pass on crashing that car Alvee. But back to what i was saying, after these guys get too old to be making real movies, fucking whose going to be playing respectable roles, fucking DMX.

P.S. DMX would actually be good for a member of shield
P.S.S. updated top ten list comign shortly

I know i said I was done with live journal for a minute

Sun, 10 May 2009 05:52:10 GMT

but i heard about these pictures, fucking these Rihanna pictures,
Don't know if it is actually her, but got danm got danm here you all go

http://egotastic.com/entertainment/celebrities/rihanna/rihanna-nude-004623

Also in other news a nail went through my foot and i am out of commission for a minute.

But still Naked rihanna pictures!!!!!!!The story supposedly is that they were realeased about a day ago, and Def Jam has been vigorusly been trying to take them off the internet, there is also a video being shopped around, even if it aint her, everyone ladies included shoud check the pictures to appreciate beauty

there are sources on wikipedia, but my internet is pissing me off so im off to bed

Fri, 01 May 2009 08:10:01 GMT

ahhh well just so everyone knows, my car is going to cost nearly 1,000 not bad considering i thought i'd need a whole new transmission. The cop Shop event calmed me like nothing else really could, like just going there is the best thing in the world for me, i met up with madd people so don't be surprised if at my next party there are a lot of weird rappers. But i am probably going to stop coming to this site for a minute, I'm wasting a lot of time just coming on here and reading shit, i can't imagine how much time is completely wasted posting some of the bull shit yall post. But chris imma call you out n here because i cant call you right now, but if you are seriously interested in doing some things with your beats get in touch this weekend, leave a voicemail too.

Thu, 30 Apr 2009 16:40:02 GMT

i had the best day yesterday, fucking i met DMC, from erun dmc, got a picture too, and eddie from the cop shop gave me 5 cd's for nearly nothing, then around 11, i go to drive home from the studio, and fucking doesn't move, my fuckign tranny is fuckinng shot just sitting in joshy's driveway. now i go to fuckign turn on the fuckign television the fuckign blue screen is back on danm near every fuckign channel, this is some real fuckign bullshit, they took away x files from me, now i lost I love money, history channel, and fuckign no more fucking Good times, I'm going to be pissed if i have to invest in Netflix, fuck did they take away the mets too? Nah they left me the mets, so when i want to watch them lose i can do that every night at least. I don't know im pretty pissed to say the least, to pay for the tranny anyone know where i can get a job?
if anyone wants to go to the last cop shop concert tonight hit me up

That was some cheap shit James

Thu, 23 Apr 2009 07:29:56 GMT

you won thsi round, but imma get you back....
fuckign someone reported me and my facebook account is deleted. you son of a bitch.
you are lucky i like you because thats dirty man. you knew i was goign to beat you

Thu, 23 Apr 2009 06:18:58 GMT

yo know i thought facebook was so gay and if not for this one certian thing i'd have delted it, but i've spent an increbile amount of tiem into this one thing, and im proud of it truely proud of it.

Tue, 21 Apr 2009 23:04:36 GMT

Be aware of the fact that when you tell a girl something in earnest you are actually telling her entire inner circle of friends.

I copied that from james page, it was too long ago for me to leave a comment, i just want to call bullshit on this. Yeah everyone reading this is b far much worse of a gossip than any girl i've met for the most part, not saying im a fucking pimp, but you know for a fact once i tell one kid one thing, everyone that was at your house for your party is going to know within the next few months. so unless you are calling yourself and your friends girls what you said has no real truth.

Also I lied about the cop shop, he isn't going out of business anymore, hes hooking up with another store, a specialty sneaker store to be exact, hes going to have aa smaller section, ans they will keep up the in-store signings. The open mics are going to be moved to some bar, not known exactly yet, but ill tell all yall to come watch me rock the shit. he's bringing them back in june. not that anyone gives a shit, because yall can't respect something real like that but i just thought i should say it
also DMC from run DMC is going to be at suffolk on april 29th, i say definately check that out or at least try to.

Alright now here comes the stories that really made any of my live journal posts worth reading in my opinion. In one night i got banned from really two of the most ironic places considering it is myself Buffalo Wild wings and 7-11. yeah not all 7-11's but my 7-11. but first ill get into buffalo wild wings. it was thrusday, and you know im madd cheap, I come in with my soda from home, i don't have any money to buy anything, i just wanted to hang out with my friends, and i walk in , its fucking madd packed and there is this bald kind-of-fat pussy with a BWW polo, so because his shirt is a different color this bitch ass is thinking hes got authority. He looks at me, and before anything hes saying no outside drinks in here. I try to explain myself saying, "look honestly first off where am i going to put it, second off, if you really make me leave, how much sense does it make to lose 50-$100, because your kicking me out for bringing in a drink from home, not to mention i've brought it in here before" Then hes saying "its policy, and if everyone brought drinks from home we'd lose money" then i said thats complete bullshit, then he said, if i didn't throw the cup out, he was goign to get people to kick me out, so i said "nah heres a real reason to kick me out" as i poured the cup of soda over his chest. I was ready to knock this pussy out, but i just walked out. i was never told i was banned from bww, but im probably not welcome there so thats why i said that.
now for 7-11, the kid who has worked the night shift for the past year and a half, consistantly busts my balls, you know i've been going there since i was fucking 7, now I've spent 1,000's of dollars on slurpees alone, and i know the people that work there on a name basis. but this night shift kid, who i usually only see, because i go there at like midnight and after, so sometimes i'll catch the mourning guy, but let me getback, so fucking i want to go to the bathroom on my walk to the bank, to deposit my bullshit ass check. So im already pissed about the bww and my bullshit ass check, and how i can't even spend enough money to get a clear slurpee cup, right, its enough to get anyone pissed, then this bitch tells me i can't use the bathroom anymore, his manager says no one but employees can use it. I've been using this bathroom before this pussy has been in America. thats real fuckin talk, so i tell him its cool, "it's me" one of those, and he tells me "who the hell are you" and im like shocked, just like what the fuck is god testing me, i kind of laughed and just started walking to the bathroom anyway, and he gets in front of me and tells me i can't take another step, and i take another step, and e pushed me.... "what the fuck, you want me to piss on the floor dude? haha you'll be cleaning it up" and he gets really angry, and says "if i take another step he's calling the police, and im still laughing, but i am starting to get angry too, so i kind of walk through him this next step, and he like tries throwing me, so now im pissed and tell him if i don't take a piss here, there going to be problems i fucking know where the dude lives at and imma fuck him up yada yada yada" and hes still standing his ground, so i toss him by the soda, and he tells me hes calling the police and everything was on camera, and i just left scared as shit, like i'm 19 i'm probably going to jail, but then nothing has happened and he did push me first so now, im kind of happy i completly bitched him out, but at the same time if i ever want a slurpee i have to go to mark tree, which the white guy working there is madd chill i must say.

Also another great story with me is the donanting platelets story, but it was too long ago for me to write up, ask me next time i see you if your interested, or ask andrews, danielle criag, or krystal i told them already, peace one love

Mon, 13 Apr 2009 15:47:59 GMT

wrote the last shit 12 hours ago and couldn't sleep just got back from class and making some chicken wings,

But in response to my last post here you go, aplhabetical falter at my favorite place in the world
R.I.P.

I'm actually back on here

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 08:23:56 GMT

yo i only came on here to read the entry like wrote about love, i was told everything was funny such as the comments, and no offense mike but i heard your argument was highly flawed, but so was nearly every comment regarding the issue, now I'm not going to sit here and bullshit you all, I've never been in anything close to love, and am not a psychologist but AP psych and stony brook psych 111 has told me that the feelings of love stimulate different parts of the brain and have been shown to continue throughout life. Remember in the movie 50 first dates the guy who forgets everything after looking away. Well i remember from that class we watched a video with an actual guy with that problem and functioned perfectly and only remembered two things they pointed out, something about playing music and piano and his wife. He could not remember anything such as how he met her, his children, or even where he fucking was living, but he remembered her and until his death he kept those feelings about this woman who he knew essentially nothing about, except that he loved her. Love isn't something we can sit here and type about I can't believe that it's something thats truely beyond us, and hopefully i'll be able to experiance in my lifetime. As shown by my exapmle love doesn't have to have anything to do with fucking, obviously fucking/making love symbolizes it, and can cause the same brain functions to occur, but its two different things, thats how I feel if anyone would like to say anything else i'd like to hear it.

Also Mike made a point calling James out for being homophobic, and thats something I have had on my mind lately, not james being homophobic but our entire society. Partly because of me getting deeper into hip hop and whatnot, and in the world of hip hop if i were to say i had a gay friend, I'd be looked at as a homosexual myself. I know people who was in the same room as Kevin patera, would just leave the house, because it makes them that uncomfortable. Which you all know I have no problem with anyone for what they do or there beliefs/lifestyle, but I can't lie and say for myself, and say It wouldn't skeeve me out to see him on top of another naked man kissing him. I don't mean to sound ignorant, but thats the truth, and I mean I mean no intentional disrespect towards him, because honestly i enjoy his company he's one funny fucking kid. lmfao i have a few funny stories involving that kid, you know I'd fuck somebody up for that kid, but still can't stop myself from getting nearly grossed out when eric stewart saying "my asshole is like my vagina". Let me digress, not a disgusted feeling but just a strange feeling along the lines of the one I used to get when I was alone around a group of thug looking black people which is still racist, but nothing along the sides of wearing a mask calling Barack Obama A nigger. I can't say I've never called some one out for doing something "gay" and I still do it occasionally, ignorant or not. No lie if I see some one wearing tight pants and a scarf the first thing that'll come to my mind "that kids a fucking faggot". It's something engrained in me that when I'm not thinking it'll come out, but when i turn my mind on i don't act polite and politically correct only to be politically correct in public, i believe it's natural to be yourself at any cost. You know Mike I don't mean to call you out, but you were pretty offended when that dumb fucking kid i forget his name, he was always real real shady around me, he lives around us, but you were fucking pissed when he said something about you beigng gay. And its funny because thats just society beating out or brains, when we think i guess. let me get back to point.
You know I look at myself as pretty progressive, I've eaten with millionaire republicans in the Hamptons to fighting alongside fake bloods in queens (and when i say fake, I don't mean they wouldn't fuck us up) and I've hooked up with a higher vareity of race of girls than anyone reading this most likely (Alvee hook me up with a brown girl, I NEED it). Not many people have had the experiances I've had to make the type of decisions I can make, and yet i still get this weird feeling thinking about a boy going down on another boy. And what I'm trying to say with this is lets say I've lived a very sheltered uneducated life, I'd be very disrespectful towards many different people homosexuals included. and knowing that, for homosexuals to come out, with the option to stay in the closet and no one looking at you funny, or treating you differently I have CRAZY respect for gay people for that.
I don't know thats just something thats been on my mind for a bit and I haven't been able to really channel it anywhere without someone looking at me a little different. I don't know though maybe things would be different if one of my closest friends was a homosexual instead of an aquantiance, just because I know I wouldn't stop being their friend for it, but until that happens i'll live like this i guess.
Also I don't mean to offend anyone, if what i said came off offensive i'll apologize its just something I do not understand too well. I only wrote this to get other people's opinoins, and just check them out. If anyone gay would like to comment I'd love and appreciate it, and for Mike and everyone that commented n his love shit I'd like to hear some more intelligent conversation
and I have to keep the pattern going, with my last journal entries fuck you ya dumb pussies

Thu, 18 Dec 2008 07:48:11 GMT

Well i was going to go into detail about tonight how i went to a show, the headliners didn't come and me and will pissed off the security as we left to the point where police was called it was a funny story, But instead I'm just going to write this, First off I want to say this is going to be the last time i write in this for a while, i'm genuinely annoyed, first off, I'm just going to mention this little blog shit you guys got, I don't know why you didn't add the post I made, but at this point I don't want it on there, Medic Media eat a dick, shit pissed me off guys honestly, fucking i was kind of pumped to do itand the conversations i had with mark and mike can validate it. yeah i was just going to not mention this, but this in fact down right hurt me, thanks for not hitting me up about the Stella show the mourning of, I fucking forgot about it and I deeply regret it, and I know yall told me about it, but c'mon you know I'd have called you all the mourning of, for anything else. I mean you guys know how much i love them come on I fucking wore suits to school because of them, Like no one even mentioned it at the party I threw mainly fucking as a peace offering almost to you guys because yall never fucking hit me up anymore. Seriously nobody even hit me up on AIM let alone my cell so really fuck all yall, like even after i made it clear I felt we were drifiting apart, still nothing....until i have a party. now Alvee cut the anti-women shit wasn't funny in high school, aint funny now, and I'm not trying to call yuo out, because you aint a bad kid , you know I'd still thorw down for you, but for real this blaming every girl for every problem in the world is on some bullshit and I feel you're jsut doing it for some dumb ass attention. And APB get over yourselves, no one with self respect can even take you the sligtest bit serious, Mike doesn't like the music me and will make, but he likes rob pirougues phone number as a hook? Which I have to say is really fucking immature guys. For real I really fucking tried meeting people halfway. lmfao i'm fuckign putting in effort to try and be cool with you guys, and every day I feel more disrespected by motha fuckas, and you know say whatever you want about how I start shit I've always done it I'm still going to do it, if you can't take me joking around good eat a fucking dick. All I can say is if you want the good parts of me, you can take the bad parts too, and obviously motha fuckas dont want to, so Imma stop trying i wont bother you motha fuckas no more and continue not fucking around with me aight peace hope you have some fullfilling ass lives, and maybe i'll see you guys around 7-11 or something.

ahhhhhhh dream entry

Fri, 05 Dec 2008 11:50:59 GMT

Yo Mike first off i read your entry about your fucking blog, fucking I got some ideas,
you know let me do da doodles , like I'll draw one every week, or at least take stupid pictures and give them funny word bubble captions you know everyone loves those.
I got the rap reviews on lock, giving them to anyone else would be sacreligious, and I'd NEVER talk to you agian Starting with all the grammy nominated albums, except the lil wayne album I'm probably never going to listen to that.
Yo for real I'll review the show celebrity rehab, like all the cast members on that show, whose most likely to become cracked out and when, fucking we need a whole section on all the VH1 shows, like real chance of love and yes even the pickup artist. lmfao for real I watch celebrity rehab religiously Gary Busey is must watch television
Alvee can do his dreams
Speaking of the infamous alvee dreams heres the one i just had last night
Now I have to apoligize for the languauge in this entry
Yo I had this crazy ass dream like I was all over the place lmfao first off I remember doing anal with fucking probably the fattest ass I've ever seen, i remember just a huge white fat ass. I didn't see this girls face, but i specifically remember just vividly holding these hips, and i was thinking like a nut, because i never did anal before and i was worried about like using a condom and my dick smelling like shit afterwards, and you know I felt bad a little because that shit must really hurt the girl i was doing it too, I couldn't imagine it being pleasureable, but I was thinking all this while i was going in and out, so it was pretty futile, i finished very quickly, and was just walking around naked in this like 1800's city setting with my old politics professor, and she was telling me why i only got a B- but I was smart enough to get an A if i just applied myself, and then i forget a bit, and i remember finally being clothed in a dirt pen chasing a little baby pig and I was going to give it to jennifer anniston, the girl from friends, you know Ross and Racheal, I don't know why jennifer anniston, lmfao so i remembered becoming furious because i couldn't catch him and she was like teasing me because i couldn't catch the damn thing, and i said something about hating friends the TV show, and we got into an arguement. Then to make it up to her i realized i needed to get the pig, and then once i got it i put it in a cat carrying case, and I gave it to her and when she took it out it transformed into this like gremlin armadillo with fangs and tusks and it was scary as shit, but she loved the danm thing so i brought her back to my room expecting to get lucky, and she looked around and said something like "oh whats this your little baby brothers room" i and I got pissed off agian and told her too leave and then called up one of my friend's girlfriends, and I'm not going to name any names, but she denided me because of her boyfriend, then I tried calling ghostface up, I don't know why he's a fucking fixture in my dreams, and then i remember talking to hilary from the fresh prince and i was balling so I just remember being naked agian wearing nothing but sandles this time just like running around being really excited, and then i saw ghostface and he slapped me and told me he was lieing about hillary and he'd never do somethign like that for me.After all this I remember being in my back yard and am excited to have all my friends start coming over here and we have like a bbq thing, but there were more cartoons over here then my real friends, I only remember piccoli fluker cocco alex parisi, and Alyssa and James (which was still after all these years some stressful shit) being over here, and then like pacman, zorak, and spaceghost, flanders stopped by too lmfao. I remember there being like overcrowded and everyone was like takign advantage of the party and I got pissed agian. Then like i don't remember anything after that and this girl that i was talking to about a month or two ago, this brown girl Mayaan who i just met working in the mall, and pretty much bothered her enough the the point to get her number and shit, lmfao like i aint going into detials, but its pretty pathetic, lmfao ugh, so yeah i ended up meeting up with her in the 1800's city place and i'm still naked and i was having this conversation with her the same one i had with her over the phone about wu-tang, and she aint from america and don't even know what star wars is, and i had to explain who and what hip hop is and shit, and then i went to a Nas show with her and piccoli, and i don't remember anythign after that.

But that reminds me I should have never stopped talkign to that girl, she was really like too pretty for me, she was weird though, and like i said she aint from america, and doesn't know star wars, but the accent she had was madd cute lmfao, the way she said ol' dirty bastard was just made me fucking melt. Fucking I need to go to the mall tommorrow and fucking stalk this girl a bit and get some pity dates and turn it into a serious fuckfest. yo its either that or hook up with some butt nasty drunk girl, and for someone who doesn't drink it's not the best feeling doing that. Dayum yo for real, i'll probably not do either and think about jerking off until its too late and just go to sleep for the next two weeks. Maybe write a song about it, called Litterello's blog maybe even change it to soem subliminal shit and call it gimmie mah p'zone n*gga, you know cut Fluker into the chorus for that one word, it'll come out hilarious. Or Imma call it the anal virginator, nah anal virgin-gator ->anal mergingatoraider -> speaking of Raiders they beat the Jets, and for real the Jets really know how to piss me off this season. go Giants, nah fuck that GO PAT GO 49ER'S CHARGERSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!
alright I'm going to get to making some songs so people can make fun of me behind my back about it peace.
Speaking of witch if you'd read this far, it must mean you love me, and if you love me, put one of my songs in your myspace playlist. I need to up my playcount, seriosuly please Fluker is killing me on them
And by the way, whoever owns a livejournal and doesn't put one of my songs on there playlist on myspace i'm taking it as a personal direct diss, and will write a freestyle diss about you on here, Tom wolff ryhming style. BYE Haters BYE Haters

Thu, 27 Nov 2008 10:06:20 GMT

lmfao i put two new pictures on my myspace and they are too sleezy for you not to see
www.myspace.com/murphytherapper
Thank you for everyone who came tonight, have a happy thanksgiving

Wed, 26 Nov 2008 17:13:31 GMT

yo im having people over today if anyone wants to eat some chicken wings

So I did my first show/open mic son on Friday and you know I gots to Brag....

Mon, 10 Nov 2008 08:56:37 GMT

I'm just kind of stalling from studying more, but fucking i preformed for the first time on friday night at the cop shop at the open mic, YO it was crazy. like I got to the sign-up madd late like you cant sign up past 10 I got there at like 9:58, so i knew because i was going to be close to one of the last people performing. Once I got in I found out i was going to be going 25th out of 30 people, fucking whatever you know I figured I'd be waiting until like 12-12:30 but whatever I was fucking pumped. So I watched the first couple of guys, and I knew I was going to be one of the worst I was just looking to have some fun you know, lmfao so I really was looking at it as if I had nothing to lose. Then the few people who I knew that work there or the rappers i just spoke to from the last few times, kept telling me over and over like "yo its all good i just give you respect for going up there its hard, my first time i was so nervous......." so fucking they were not trying to, but that shit was psyching me out a bit, and after the first half hour i was sweating a bit and with the shit load of people that the store packs out every month, I was like having a hard time breathing for a second, lmfao. that went away after I went outside and cooled down. So whatever I'm cool, I'm just outside by the dumpster by myself practicing my lyrics until i got them down perfect and then I was just chilling outside for a minute with everyone. its like 11:30 now and I'm starting to get pumped again, just positive energy all around me. I go back in to ask what person they are up to Eddie tells me around 8, so I'm just trying to conserve some more energy now, because people were being dicks, putting two songs on one beat to get like ten fucking minutes up there and shit. Go back outside, dont do anything, then I go back inside, and lmfao of all people I see Bobby Jeter, with Teddy Torres, and one of the kids I met at Chris's Friend Simon's Party, lmfao now I ain't dissing him he's my boy, but that aint the type of kid you expect to see at the cop shop, lmfao like I know I'm not one to talk about this, but I'm usually the only white teenager there ever. Also for whatever reason the kid teddy torres was being madd shady to me, but whatever like i said Bobby's a cool kid. lmfao that was just weird, he got excited when i told him i was going up and doing my shit, it was cool I had like a little fan club. But at this point it's getting later and later and the Emcee/host is saying whose up next, then the guy after them, and then the thrid guy after that, and my name still wasn't being called. I'm getting pised at this point I'm thinking these fucking people are putting people in front of me because this is my first night whatever whatever, but turns out I was being paranoid and over thinking shit. But point is I was getting pissed then around 1:30 Ike the Infamous (the host) goes up and says "Yo WHATUP FAM, Next up we got my boys Fly guy Ent. just coming off tour from Virginia to stop by and treat us, Then OH SHIT WE GOT A NEWCOMER, MURPHY REPRESENTING SELDEN WHATUP" then just hearing that put a huge smile on my face like nothing could the whole night So now I'm just going through the song in my head, and lmfao for whatever reason I cant remember the last few words of the first line, and without it it'll throw everything off the it comes back to me "Accidents Abortions Alcoholics Applejacks..." and then I'm good agian, The Fly guys did a good show, they did the same shit with the two full beats and saying its one song, but they are some of my favorite guys to see so I was cool with it. then Ike gets back up there and he's going crazy as usual and yelling "Give it up to the fly Guys NOW MURPHY get yo ass up here, Yo whatup cop shop Respresenting Selden STRONG ISLAND New York" So I'm walking up onto the step of the stage give the DJ my CD of my beat, and then Ike goes into this little speech saying "Yo this goes for every cat coming up tonight, and any other night, I've been doing this for years, and I know they be a decent amount of people signed and they making a living off this rap shit, so always come with your hardest, You never know whose going to be listening" Thats something he says every night, but the fact he had to say it while i was behind him on the stage just gave me a lump in my throat like "Oh Mah God"
Now He gave me the Mic, all the positive energy just dropped once he gave me that, Yo i had a little introduction planned just to get people to laugh a bit before i started, once I was alone up there it was Gone, all I could do was clear m throat and say "yo DJ.... just play the beat, mhmm yeah lets.... uhh go" Now the only comparable feeling I could give you guys was the first time I went out vandalizing/egging, and I apologize for any ladies reading this, but the first time I got my dick rubbed. Now you know that nervousness where you're whole body wants to be completely stiff and at the same time it wants to become jelly and just drop to the floor and give up, my head went blank, I got goosebumps and my arm was like shaking, lmfao the thing about it, I wasn't nervous at all the entire night, until he gave me that mic. This is all happening within a few seconds Then i get a grip and just go hard on that first bar, like the whole crowd was digging it.... until the 5th line yeah I fucking forgot it, UGH fucking God Damn I felt so fucking stupid. It's a madd small place so you hear everyone watching you and everyone was being madd cool about it "Fuck It Nigga keep it going son, Dont Stop"
I got a bit discouraged and then just said Fuck it redo the beat, Then I came out hard with it as hard as I could, lmfao and some people were singing the first few bars with me and that made me smile, but yall could still tell i was nervous, I got the cotton mouth, dryest I've ever felt, but I kept going trying to just like lick my lips, shit still didn't work, but it was all good, my punchlines was making people laugh i got some of the stereotypical rap battles "OHHHHHHHHHHHHH" you know what I'm talking about

these are the lines I think? Probably more than that because you know I ripped it sooooo hard kid

"Fly flowers for a fatty to fathom a finger fuck"
"Nickolodeon to Nicotiene To Nyphmomania
Ochie Wallah one for Obama"
"Shout outs to Star wars and Smith Haven shoplifters"
"Value of a Vendetta Veiling Visons
Worth the warentee of Wikipedia Wisdom
Wiretaps Warants White Nikes as well
X-ray my Dick Size XXXXL
Xerox Malcom X, X-box, and X-men"
For X I was a bit nervous comparing myself to Malcom X shit I got like two people cheering with that.

I ended up fucking up again Ugh on the third to last line but I just said fuck it. I ended up just being really happy though, even though it came with the nevousness of fucking up, once I was done with it and everyone and i mean everyone was coming up to me saying I was fantastic one guy asked me to do a collaboration with him, but my head was a bit dizzy once i got off and i forgot to save his number I think his name was ricky Illseed. And with all that you get the satisfaction of getting rubbed off for the first time. Lmfao For real though I got a video of it, i'll post it up once i get a firewire cable. I'm watching it right now I look really stupid, lmfao you can tell I'm madd nervous, but Im going to go back next month and I'm going to learn how to make real beats, maybe get a keyboard, also APB when you getting over here for the Murphy the Rapper mixtape, fucking hit me up, what yall lost my fucking number???? No Fun for All shit though, we actin like we straight murderers on this track lmfao, aight goodnight its almost time for my dad to wake up and he's becoming a grumpy old man so i am just going to aviod him. once love peace to the gods and earth word is bond.....

Dont forget to vote.

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 07:31:44 GMT

I might have another thanksgiving party this year, but I'm doubtful because I'm still furious at the pussies from my last party.
I've been having dreams every single night for weeks now with like vivid feelings of my teeth being madd brittle and either falling out or rotting out of my mouth, i finally looked it up, and it means that I'm worried about my appearance, or i'm in a situation where i feel powerless, but that seems really stupid, like how can everyones subconcious work the same in terms of fucking teeth falling out. Fuck that shit son, fucking also Vote Tommorrow. I'm voting for Obama if anyone wants to bite my style.

Wed, 29 Oct 2008 11:02:05 GMT

Fucking Dead ass I'm fucking pissed, so pissed I aint going to sleep i just want to fuck some kids up right now you know. I fucking really am fucking burning out badly with school and shit, I feel like a fucking zombie all the fucking time. I cant explain that last entry i wrote, like i don't even remember taking like full midterms or recording full verses lately. I can't even explain it, I'm fucking beat its all I can say, ugh a lot bullshit's been goin down lately, I'm not going to write about it specifically and that aint about nobody thats gonna be reading this, I ain't subliminally dissing motha fuckas right now, don't worry. Like aight Imma be straight up with something else though for a minute, I might be paranoid like a new born fucking baby on some shit right now, but I'm feeling peoples and when i say peoples I mean motha fuckas I'd have done anything for in the past is slowly slicing my back up with that fucking dagger. I just feel theres some shady shit going down and motha fuckas is thinking of some real slick shit they want to do to me, but people be to pussy to say what's good to my face son. Motha fuckas be pushing me til I get defensive constantly just to use that as some bullshit reason to get that final jab in son, Thats what I'm personally thinking is going down soon, and if that don't apply to yall reading this, don't worry about it, you know Im going to love you, and get your back, but if it does apply to you, I might just go all fucking out and put you on blast, just go straight for the jugular, leave motha fuckas in the gutter you know. But to get back to what i was saying, I fucking can honestly say I don't like school. Like I never liked school, like I just can't really be optimistic about anything at Stony Brook, I just feel like its a bunch of average ass motha fuckas no offense to the people who take pride in it, Also I've never really put any thought into my future. I have no idea what the fuck I am going there for yet, like not even a clue. I'm taking all these dumb bullshit elective classes, which I can't tell you guys one legitimate thing I've found interesting or even one thing I've really fucking learned. Like besides realizing how gay motha fuckas at Stony brook is, and goes to say so much about me considering I can't meet one person whose given a minutes intrest in me you know what I'm saying? I just need to relax for a minute and get my shit striaght for a minute. I don't even know what I'm going to do tommorrow even let alone for the rest of my life. Like also I always pictured myself doing some like superman heroic type shit, like really helping people, whether they deserve it or not, I always try to help anyone from big shit to little shit. Like I dont give a shit about money for myself, i'm done with the materialistic type shit, but I want a job making madd money because I know, when i find that one lady, and we get some kids I want them to have the most privledged spoiled fucking lives and them not to worry about a damn thing ever. Thats the dead ass truth, but then I aint going to be one of those bum ass pussy ass dads never home either. lmfao I know i'm going to be one of those madd over protective type dudes, I just know it.
I also am a bit like uneasy with whats going on in this country, I'm not talking politics here, I'm only dropping some of that Nostradamous shit, fucking 2012? the end of the world? thing is I'm not scared of it, not at all, like can die happily today, I mean i got to finish the mixtape, just to bump that shit at my funeral, you know what I go to make a funeral track anyone want to get on that with me? Some fucking happy go lucky upbeat type of funky ass party song. I mean i honestly believe we were all put here for some type of reason and it wont just end with maggots eating our corpses, but thats no reason not to have a great time while we are here.
I'm going to leave with this, try and pull some slick shit on me, I'm not going to get revenge, I'm just going to regulate. No more dick sucking going on around here, just fucking be real with me. Depending on who it is, whether i slap the shit out of you, or just punk you out verbally, I'll buy you a slurpee, taco bell, and if you'd like a nice 40 oz. But this livejournal shit actually really changed my mood I'm pretty happy now, I still feel like an overbooked zombie demon but i got a smile I mean i have to be doing something right, Right?

P.S. I'm 75% percent going to the party's now. And with such a high percentage I really can't say no after that, peace boot breath

Thu, 23 Oct 2008 22:47:45 GMT

First off Lyfe jennings man, lmfao hes a girly R&b guy, and im only saying this because its so ironic I saw him as he opening act for the wyclef show, fucking he shot his gun off, had a car chase with police with his vette, refused the dui test, now he also just got off probation he was in prison from 92-02 for arson....good luck big homie

I just have to say this, fucking fuck cartoon network, I want looney tunes, fuck scooby doo, like i don't know anyone who really likes scooby doo, a pup named scooby doo wasn't too bad, but scooby doo was madd homo and they always have it on. Like I'm not a big TV watcher, but now that Sci-fi is gone, All i watch is cartoon network and maybe ill watch the colbert report and daily show occasionally. Now some of the shit on cartoon network isn't terrible I watch some of the new shows chowder and the misadventures of flapjack, and the grim adventures of billy and mandy they are funny shows, courage the cowardly dog has been on cause of halloween and shit, thats hot, you can't front on courage. Fucking back to scooby doo, like every single episode is the same exact shit, never does it really make anyone laugh, no character development, always the same meddling kids, thats the only thing that makes people smirk when watching it some ugly man in a coustume saying "i'd have gotten away with it too....." out of familiarity. something funnier than that line said in familarity "th-th-th-thats all Folks". God knows how it has lasted so long, lets list freddy, hes a fucking perv, daphne, fucking dumb cut who in real life would probably think shes too hot to be anything but best buddies with me, thelma, would want my shit, but Woof...its thelma, like even shaggy aint hittin that, who shaggy aint nothing but a bum ass bitch. and now that i'm done writing anything legitimate about the show, which i was originally going to try, let me rip apart that fucking stupid ass dog. First off, why the fuck are scooby and his family members the only animals that can talk in the show, what fucking dimension are they living in, its fucking stupid. Why does shaggy like scooby snacks- dog treats -more than actual food? There are so many shows that are exactly the same as scooby doo too, fucking teenage investigators with some dumb talking animal, and quite frankly I'd rather watch Jabberjaw the shark, Hong Kong PHOOEY that was the shit, captian caveman, even the fat asian guy with a bunch of little asian orphans helping him, i forget the name of it, I looked it up, The Amazing Chan and the Chan Clan, and i hate to say these two but fucking speedbuggy, and josie and the pussycats. Alright not josie and the pussycats, but there are so many shows idetical to scooby doo, its not needed. Now Looney tunes has constantly been ripped off, and but still funny as fucking shit, still relevant its just not fair. I'm just upset. Now no ones going to really read into this or debate it, but if anyone actually does, I'm going to come with straight up facts and kill yall on it, Scooby doo and shaggy, more like poopie doo and crappy. Ugh I'm going to delete this when i get the chance and write a real arguement though. peace but really think about it, its not fair

I'm in a great mood

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 03:18:53 GMT

Thats just one of the funnest songs I can think of and will make anyone smile at least once through the video, coolio then made rock albums after the groundbreaking success of tat album Gangsta's paradise, and is now trying to get his show aired "Cooking With Coolio" those youtube videos are fucking great, too, find the pilot episode cooking shit in the hood, lmfao dues nuts. Fucking I really don't know what to say, I tried talking to a girl that works at one of the booths in the mall, it was like some hand lotion shit, my hands still smell like a girl, but shes madd pretty and yo Imma go after that, Also my two costumes choices for john's party consist of dean venture as "the bat" from the halloween episode, or a big box, Im probably going with the box. Also I think I'm going to just stop rapping, like im not going to go anywher with it so its just really kind of wasteing so much of my time. Like I dont know i do love it, and I am really excellent at, but i just feel like its just hurting my grades and my social life, its danm near consuming everything, like I'm always on my laptop on shitty ass garage band like touching up songs for months that i have yet to release, I might just release the stuff i got on the myspace and just say goodbye for a while maybe do some guest shit with piccoli and cocco, but i don't know man, i'm just fucking lieing I love hip hop more than anything and if i had to choose I'd choose hip hop over stony hood, I don't care if yall call me crazy, peace easy one love to tha godzzzz love all yall yo family vacation dropping next week all I'm saying is I did start the revival I/venom mobb BETTER get that crazy ass shout out......in the big lemon voice? please? pretty please? I'll be your best friend, nah for real I'll be checking for that album drop and also tha mobb gave you guys a shout out, agian one love peace to mother earth and peace to the godz

La Di Da Di

Fri, 10 Oct 2008 06:39:01 GMT

yo for real until you've been to a good hip hop concert you haven't been too a really good concert. hands down Slick Rick is the motha fucking Ruler. Didn't even start until like one in the mourning, and i got a fucking midterm tommorrow mourning (plus madd studying for that midterm) but I'm happy as a motha fucka. The opening acts we ridiculous, but since they were the opening acts no one gave a shit, which is the only thing that pisses me off about concerts. the only opening act i didn't like was actually going out with michelle jordan ( yeah i know, what the fuck?) Jay Godz, like he had a sick flow, but rapped about making money and stupid shit, but the other acts there were two bands both with horns, and a group of like six guys with a DJ, and i swear to god the last opening act lifted, had the best sax player I've ever heard, like for real i just had to get through to all yall and say I'm actually in a great mood, and FUCK ALL YALL PUSSY ASS MADE ASS WORK ASS TRICK BITCHES. No but for real best thing about hip hop shows, no pussy ass white kids like yall, ruining my time with your gayness, you know what I mean. And I've been told that "hip hop heads are madd stubborn and just sound stupid well youre a fucking moronic douce, cause yall on't know shit about hip hop pussy. PEACCCCCCCEEEEEEEEEEEEE...........................one love to my family

yo yo yo big news

Tue, 07 Oct 2008 02:05:46 GMT

Yo I'm in the trailer, I'm like all the way to the front right during the concert scene when he's wearing the orange valor shit, you have to stop it at the right time because of the strobe lights, (I'm the only white kid around that area) but I'm just happy this movie is actually going to be a nation wide thing, not just some straight to dvd bullshit. HAHA peace

Mon, 29 Sep 2008 08:56:06 GMT

So i'm assuming I can finally say this without being castrated, Fuck the Mets.

piezz 2 tha gxdz

Sun, 28 Sep 2008 07:46:44 GMT

dayum fluker and piccoli just left, we actually got some shit done tonight. One song is semi-serious, the other is one of those supposed to be funny but can be taken as disgusting and very chauvanistic. I am dead ass tired, fucking i have been madd sick this whole past week, like i haven't been able to stay awake longer than like 5-8 hours, some for real bizarre shit, and my entire body was constantly aching. I've fallen back so much in school now, but whatever because i'm probably going to drop out and become a pro emcee, i mean i have absolutely no experiance but, i can probably do it, and if i can't i'll just become a dust head.

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 05:58:27 GMT

Ugh i just realized i have a midterm on Oct. 10th, Gonna be a shitty mourning. That got me thinking can someone send me the Rocktober 29th pictures.

dayum I'm seriously going to be fucking so rich and famous.

Sat, 20 Sep 2008 07:42:40 GMT

fucking i just got home from the cop shop, for the very first ever monthly producer showcase, now you all know I'm not a producer, I know I'm not a producer, but i was the first up, and fo real i set the expectations high, i did the george of the jungle, the other beat on myspace, and one called I'm sorry and the other is just beat #3. I wasn't nervous as i thought i would be, i rocked it I was dancing on the stage, Posdunos of De La Soul was there he's one of my favorite emcees, he shook my hand, and patted me on my back, then someone offered me $100 for the george of the jungle shit. and i took it and I'm buying a chain, a REALLY BIG chain. okay now that I got my necessary lies out, that didn't happen. I went I was the first one up there, which is cool to say you know I was the very first to do the very first show. But with being the first one, I didn't know what to really do. I felt really fucking stupid, up on that little stage with the host. Like everyone who goes to the shows are real producers with hip hop being their life. They pay for their families food and utilities with this shit, and I'm just some teenage college kid with some punk ass beats. They started it late, so everyone would be there, so as i said I was the first one up, and just looking around like i don't want to say i felt out of place, but my beats were not for the type of place, and i knew that going in, but i said whatever. But also being first, i didn't know if i was supposed to stand on the platform stage, or get off, who to give the beat cd too. and like i did one of those awkward starting to walk away, then walking back, then walking away again only to go back in like five seconds. and after that i felt fucking stupid, so he asked me my name, i said "Murphy"
-"Just Murphy?"
thrity seconds of nothing pass, "so how long have you been producing, what tools do you use?"
me- "....well uhhh you know i'm not like for real a producer, I just love hip hop you know, uhhh I was just fucking around a little you know.....like uhh yeah uhh nah mean?"
Then the george of the jungle beat plays, with a decent reception, like it wasn't well respected I have to admit, but it got some laughs with the end and shit.
then i walked off the stupid platform stage as the second beat was playing because i felt stupid there like what the fuck was i supposed to do, i didn't know we were supposed to stay up there, and then this fucking guy with dreads just started yelling at me like "yo n*gg* get the FUCK back on stage this yo shit n*gg*, rep it proudly mah brotha, don't give a fuck if yall nervous, get up there"
So i walk back up on the one step stage( like its a big fucking deal right?) during the i'm sorry beat. Then i just was annoyed, and during the last beat like i felt like an ass, and i felt like i did everything wrong. Then i walked off, everyone was clapping and shit, walking through the crowd of like surprisingly 50+ people, which if you've been there you know it's a small store, so it was packed, to get to fluker all the way in the back of the store. There was this one fucking asshole who was standing by us who had something to say about everyone, and fluker was saying he didn't spare me. "fucking if he aint a producer why the fuck he doing this?", "Fucking didn't even do anything to these beat just looped them from some other song", "WOW Finally (when it was over)" He went up right after me, now he was really good, but he came as one of those old school fucking dickpunks who come through thinking they deserve respect because they've been doing this shit for 20+ years, Fucking vykehead pussy. i'm not just saying that because what he said about my beats, its more what he was saying about he other beats, fucking like he was the best, which he was probably not including me the worst i saw. Which was still madd good. Fucking twice as old as me dissing me, seriously grow up, pick on someone your own age like the fucking missing human link, old jerk. like I really have to applaud everyone of those guys shit every single beat was just hot. I mean after hearing all the other guys i knew i was going to be the worst of the fucking night, and during it although i was a little down, because of it, i knew from the beginning i was going to be the worst, and all it makes me want to do is go out and fucking make better shit for next month. And i actually mean that, not like the people who just suck and don't do anything to make themselves better. And it was a cool experiance the cop shop is like my new favorite place, like its one of those places where i feel at home and accepted without really knowing anyone. And I say that even after fucking tonight's shitty performance there were some people who actually liked my shit. I'm probably doing the open mic show in a few weeks there too, and pretty soon I'll probably be signed to an indie label and fucking start with some real hot crazy shit, and then sell out use the autotune and be a fucking millionaire/billionaire/potentially gazillionaire and not share it with any of yall kermit ass bitches, unless you get me some action, because ladies and gentlemen, I am desperate for some porking, now not depressingly desperate, but comically desperate to the point where I'd like to point it out, lmfao goodnight everyone and god bless america.